An important person

A person that spends joyous moments with me
A person that I’ll always see
even when I close my eyes
I miss u and I love you

A girl that brings love in my life
A girl that see me
I’ll take care of you
I’ll look after you
no matter what

I'm longing for you
I’m waiting for you
in every breath that i takes

Lets make this moments last for eternity
U that have been send by god
to become the person that i love
I love u forever
..only you..

your love
your smile
I only think about that
I want to live with you happiness,
and your pain...
I want to share it

I cry because
I love you
if I go away
i still love you

wanna make this moments last
With a person
that have been send by god
A person that’s so important
it's u sayang

to my sayang-im sorry if i am so sensitive in anythings regarding our relationship..it's just because i really want to take it seriously and really wanna make it last forever...it's unfathomely undeniable sayang... i love you so much..u are the only persons that managed to steal my heart completely..there will be no one else in my life..i buried this oath at the bottom of my heart forever sayang...believe me when i said u are the only one that i love...have faith in me sayang...no matter what..u always have someone here for you...i love you sayang

I Miss u

syg...i miss u so much last night...n i'm sori...i know i'm busy...sorry for not being able to focus on you more yesterday...i've have tons of work...yeah it's true that i want to drag u together with me..burn the midnight oil with me...i'm hoping that u can be there..accompanying me yesterday...but i know u r tired and u r not that-can-sleep-late kind of person...and i cannot stand to see you trying to endure the pain of staying up just because of me...so i decided to put aside what i want and put myself on your shoes...no need to worry syg...u've said u want to wait until u cannot hold on anymore...but i know that u cannot hold it anymore...n judging form your cute voice that i've heard on phone last night..i know that u r so sleepy...sori again if i didnt spend much time with you last night...i'm hoping that u can be there,in front of your laptop most of the times tomorrow(sunday)....i miss u so much...but u've said u may not able to make it because some of your relatives are coming to your house...well..wat to do :P ....guess i have to wait...never mind...if waiting is the only way for the inane me to get even a small scent of ur pure love...then i'll wait syg...i miss u syg..miss u so much...


Dikeheningan malam,
Termenung ku berseorang
Tak lena mata dipejam
Terdengar suara terngiang
Suara merdu yg disayang
Bagai kau didepan mata
Ku capai tapi tak kena
Sukarnya memendam rasa
Ingin ku luahkan kata

Bila rindu,
Terkenang mu sayang, terasa sayu,
Syahdunya jiwa ku bila malam makin kelam,
Jauh terbang diri ku melayang,
Aku rindu,
Sentuhan mu, ku rasa sayu,
Inginkan jiwa mu selubungi jiwa ini,
Bawa ku dalam pelangi,
Melepasi batas diri ini.

Jauh angan ku lena
Kurasa kita bersama
Kau bawa daku kesana
Ke alam kisah yang lama
Kenangan didalam jiwa
Bila terjaga semula
Disisiku kau tiada
Sukarnya ku pendam rasa
Inginku luahkan semua

Sesungguhnya kita mestilah
Wujudkan sefahaman dan hormat menghormati
Ikhlas kasih
Sabar insyAllah kita akan
Bertemu semula

Raye!!!!

TT-sedey dah kali ke-3 beraye kat korea...

I need you

sayang...i need you in my life...i need you most...u are the pillar of my strength...when i'm said i'm so weak ithout you by myside...it's true sayang...i've been been living with stresses,internal and external conflicts in my self or in my environments...before this...in order to overcome the pain...i've been ying to my self and put my self into a state of denial..i've pretend to laugh as much as i can..create a mere illusion-based-happiness....i've did a lots of things that is so not me...just because i want to overcome all of the pains...

now with you by myside...all of the pains rapidly gone...abruptly leaving me...and i dont know why...mayb i've found the real pure happiness that i've seek for all of these years..thanx sayang for everythings....

My Love

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata
Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
Kepada dirimu

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu

I'm inPain

You are all that I want
You're all that I need
Can't you see how I feel


When I think of you
I don't know what to do
Can't you see that my pain's so real

so tell me girl
what is wrong with you
cos it hurts me so much

to see you like this...

TT

pagi ni rase x best...cam x mesre cam biase..i've called her and asked her several times...what's wrong?..but she said nothing is wrong...but i do not know what is buggering me...die merajuk ke semalam sbb aku emo pasal ym?...tgh2 rindu gile2...ym die buat hall..dah r xde credit...emo aje ler..smpi aku dah give up...tido aje..dah xleyh buat ape2..try to stadi..x dpt...pagi ni lak..rase cam xbest aje...kitoang x bnyk ckp...what's wrong?...pening lak

then aku bawak kuar citer pasal mak aku...she said that my sweetheart never contact her before...so i asked my sweetheart to contact my mother whenever she have a free times...but she said that she need some time...but i insist her to call my mother next week...without trying to put myself in her shoes....i forced her...and i paste some phrase on our previous chat...those phrase contain somethings that WE i repeat WE(the boys) should not ever write or do to our girls....stupid me...OMG..the most dumbness-act that i've ever did....

stupid me stupid me stupid me stupid me stupid me....
ape2 pun syg...am sori k....saye just nak awk dilihat sbg sorg yg best di mate mak saye....but aku xpaham...y she still hidinng some of her feelings to me...i've told her already several times...if u have any probs regarding our relationship in any aspects...please tell me...please dont try to play hide n seek with me dear...if u didnt tell me what's wrong...i'll never know.....im so sorry if i forced you to be like me....that's juts the stupid side of myself...am sori...

Aku Sayang Kamu

just for my syg..i love u so much..i need u so much...

The Best Of Me

syg...when i've said i love you...i really meant it..from the bottom of my sincere heart...when i said i'm longing for you...i really meant it...i'm so weak without you by myside...i'm shivering all alone in the lonely night...thinking bout you...the way you talked to me..ur beautiful smile...that turn my gloomy nights into beautiful days with scorching lights...the lights that is so pure...penetrating my body and soul..giving me a reason to rise up...giving me a spirit to become the better me instead of some petty faggots...i'm debted to you sayang...ur arrival bring alots of laugh,happy face,jovial moments in my life...

now that i have you in my life....i promise to take gud care of you....to take care of your fragile heart...never will i break it intendedly..if i ever breaked ur heart before syg...i'm so sorry... in every single seconds in my life i never had any intentions to hurt you...hurting you means that hurting n torturing myself with endless pain...with you entering the pictures of mylife now...i've decided to change my life...my mission...myself...i've decided to become more matured...just for you....i'm so in love with you...you change muhd haikal into becoming a better person...

i love you with all my life...i miss you every single seconds in my life...i want to be there...sit next to you...i want to whisper 'i love you' everytimes we meet...i want the day to turn into nights in a nick of times until the day we meet...n when the days come...i just want to stare at your eyes...soundlessly...n i wish that particular time will last for eternity....because i'm longing to be with you...the one that i love....forever...

clueless...speechless...tatau nak ckp ape...adekah aku di dalam persimpangan?..antara kemahuan sendiri dan kepentingan die?...mmg ape yg aku lakukan adalah sbb nak menjaga hubungan...tetapi mungkin melampau...melampaukah aku semata2 mahu mlindungi org yang aku sayangi?...atau aku terlalu melindungi die sehingge die berasa rimas dan lemas dengan tingkah laku aku yang mementingkan diri?...mmg salah aku...semuanya salah aku yang terlalu mementingkan diri dan terlalu menjaga perhubungan...mungkin dengan tindakan aku melepaskan 'perlindungan' ini mampu memberi ruang kepada dia untuk 'bernafas' dan menjaga hati rakan-rakannya agar mereka yang xmatang itu tak lari lagi selepas terkene 'shibal'...betulkah si x matang itu lari meninggalkan dia sbg seorang sahabat? ataupun meninggalkan dia sbg seorang yang menyintai dirinya?

yang nyata,mmg sifat lelaki itu jika dia terkena 'panahan' yang menusuk kalbu die akan menerime hakikat...dan sbb itu..aku dah buat keputusan...pelindungan yang aku beri akan ku angkat...biarlah dia yang menentukan...kepercayaan yang diberi...jgn disiakan...saya tahu awk bace post ni...jgn rasa bersalah atau ape2...just nak tulis ape yg saye rase...n awk mmg berhak tentukan hidup awk...how to handle ur life..ur friends...mayb cara kita berbeza,...tapi matlamat kita sama...so saya serahkan semuanya pada awk syg...saye xkan buat mende melampau macam tu lagi k...i'm so sorry jika sbb 'shibal' saya awk hilg sorg sahabat...mmg saya ikut darah muda...tak tahan ketika itu...tergamak mangkuk tu mengacau syg saye...tanyelah lelaki lain..x kisah lar jika org itu main2 ataupun tidak...mane2 lelaki juga akan cemburu...

mungkin saya terlalu emosi dan berakal pendek ketika itu..oleh itu maafkan saya kerna menyebabkan syg hilg kawan...maaf...

thank you syg ^^

For my sayang

there is a girl...

who would be there for me...

to rise up the sun in my life...

who will be there

whenever i need a shoulder to cry on

there is a girl

who embrace me in her love

accept me the way i am

who promise me to stay by my side

eventhough the sun ain't shine anymore

there is a girl

who willingly to sacrifice anything

just to see me smile

who willingly to share anythings,anywhere,anytimes

there is a girl

that i love to death

and only death do us apart

love you forever and always..

love you sayang...

Jealousy

hey...eceli..sori for tonight...i knew that i'm quiet busy and because of that we've only had a little chit-chat at the beginning...actually u did guess right..something was not right with me..slowly answering all of ur mssges,seems no mood for a chit-chat aite?,,sorry dear...actually i really had a headache...but not only because of the math that i've tangled in...it was because i'm dealing with a jealousy inside myself...u've oftenly said to me that u'll try as best as u can to understand me..so do i...i'm trying so hard last night to seek a rationale-awareness inside my self..i'm struggling with it...because of what?...why did i get through all of the mental pain? i just want to search for a rational deep inside of me..i need it syg..need it to overcome a force that we call jealousy...yah..it's true that i really2 do not want you to go to that fucntion...i'm afraid syg...afraid of those buaye...i'm not saying that i didnt trust you..infact i trust you with all my heart...n never ever in my life before i trust someone else except my mother like i'm trusting you....it's just..knowing that there are lots of them who are waiting to 'baham' u...

i'm so jealous of them..jealous because they have the chance to stare at your beautiful eyes...meet with u...have a face 2 face conversations with u syg...and i'm here...at the edge of the world...so far from you...only being able to look at our pics that we took together...hearing your voice on the phone....maybe i'm just too afraid of losing you syg...

syg..i know this jealosy thingy is very sensitive and very dangerous...i know because of it...married couple had to went through divorce...couple had to break their relationship....i know and understand it...i just want you to know what ii've felt...please dunt take it seriously...i'm not a king control...deciding who you should be friends with or what you should do...i know that i shouldn't doubt your loyalty to me...it's just...mayb i'm just a-like-to-worry-so-much type of geek...so there was me..finding my strength to think rationally and act like one...that's why i've had a little headache and to make things became worsen...when i knew about the G n the stupid sr of yours who tried to flirt with you...the pain was deep...it's like a sword slicing my heart into 88 pieces....thus making me lost a little interest in our chat..sorry syg...sorry..but do not worry my syg...i've managed to gather my rational n as a normal human being..i try to understand the matter wisely...fortunately i managed to thought like a rationale human being and managed to put aside my jealousy...so dont worry my syg..u may go...go with no remorse k...i just want you to know that...i love you so much syg...

Look into my eyes you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do I do it for you

Look into your heart you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do I do it for you

There's no love like your love
And no other could give more love
There's nowhere unless you're there
All the time all the way

Oh you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you Ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do I do it for you

Missing you

i've woke up with a confused face...i dream about my dear yesterday...we've had a little chit-chat...n she was saying that she'll come to korea to visit me...herm..i do not know wheter should i be happy or should i have a little sadness as a 'breakfast' because i miss her so much and really want to meet her but being not able to fullfil it...kinda makes me sad...or should i be happy vigorously because i dream about her?...i guess i just deal with both of the feelings anyway...

for me,she's like the wind...when the winds slowly crushed on your face...it'll brings peace and tranquility...the softness and the tenderness in the wind..slowly make u feel safe...we r longing for it...we need it...we know the wind are there...but we cannot touch it or see it...we can only feel it's present around us...n as long as the earth continue to exist...the wind will also be the same

but one thing forsure is that i REALLY MISS her...

Hepi..

hye...one thing that really struck me when it comes to a relationship is a sense of aprreciation...n when my dear sweetheart did like this to show me how much she's appreciating me...it's enough to makes me smile for the whole day...thanx my syg..thanx so much...

if u click on the image...u can see on the about me section where she wrote down 'him' ...uhuhu..thanx...im so happy because we know that there are someone who are willingly to be apart of our life...to share everythings and anythings with us...someone who are ready to shed her tears just for us...i'm more than happy sayang...thanx so much...