Hatiku

This is My medium...

Thanx for droping by to my new blog..i've decided to dedicate this blog to my dear sweetheart linn..i think our relationship deserve its own space,a place that is pure from other stuffs like politics,economics or bla2 whatever things that i like to write...so..for those who think they cannot tolerate with excessive romance or 'jiwang'...please leave from this side or u will only suffer..because i can guarantee that it's full with that kind of stuff...so..enjoy urself...

Friday, September 28, 2007



clueless...speechless...tatau nak ckp ape...adekah aku di dalam persimpangan?..antara kemahuan sendiri dan kepentingan die?...mmg ape yg aku lakukan adalah sbb nak menjaga hubungan...tetapi mungkin melampau...melampaukah aku semata2 mahu mlindungi org yang aku sayangi?...atau aku terlalu melindungi die sehingge die berasa rimas dan lemas dengan tingkah laku aku yang mementingkan diri?...mmg salah aku...semuanya salah aku yang terlalu mementingkan diri dan terlalu menjaga perhubungan...mungkin dengan tindakan aku melepaskan 'perlindungan' ini mampu memberi ruang kepada dia untuk 'bernafas' dan menjaga hati rakan-rakannya agar mereka yang xmatang itu tak lari lagi selepas terkene 'shibal'...betulkah si x matang itu lari meninggalkan dia sbg seorang sahabat? ataupun meninggalkan dia sbg seorang yang menyintai dirinya?

yang nyata,mmg sifat lelaki itu jika dia terkena 'panahan' yang menusuk kalbu die akan menerime hakikat...dan sbb itu..aku dah buat keputusan...pelindungan yang aku beri akan ku angkat...biarlah dia yang menentukan...kepercayaan yang diberi...jgn disiakan...saya tahu awk bace post ni...jgn rasa bersalah atau ape2...just nak tulis ape yg saye rase...n awk mmg berhak tentukan hidup awk...how to handle ur life..ur friends...mayb cara kita berbeza,...tapi matlamat kita sama...so saya serahkan semuanya pada awk syg...saye xkan buat mende melampau macam tu lagi k...i'm so sorry jika sbb 'shibal' saya awk hilg sorg sahabat...mmg saya ikut darah muda...tak tahan ketika itu...tergamak mangkuk tu mengacau syg saye...tanyelah lelaki lain..x kisah lar jika org itu main2 ataupun tidak...mane2 lelaki juga akan cemburu...

mungkin saya terlalu emosi dan berakal pendek ketika itu..oleh itu maafkan saya kerna menyebabkan syg hilg kawan...maaf...

Thursday, September 27, 2007



thank you syg ^^

For my sayang



there is a girl...

who would be there for me...

to rise up the sun in my life...

who will be there

whenever i need a shoulder to cry on

there is a girl

who embrace me in her love

accept me the way i am

who promise me to stay by my side

eventhough the sun ain't shine anymore

there is a girl

who willingly to sacrifice anything

just to see me smile

who willingly to share anythings,anywhere,anytimes

there is a girl

that i love to death

and only death do us apart

love you forever and always..

love you sayang...

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Jealousy



hey...eceli..sori for tonight...i knew that i'm quiet busy and because of that we've only had a little chit-chat at the beginning...actually u did guess right..something was not right with me..slowly answering all of ur mssges,seems no mood for a chit-chat aite?,,sorry dear...actually i really had a headache...but not only because of the math that i've tangled in...it was because i'm dealing with a jealousy inside myself...u've oftenly said to me that u'll try as best as u can to understand me..so do i...i'm trying so hard last night to seek a rationale-awareness inside my self..i'm struggling with it...because of what?...why did i get through all of the mental pain? i just want to search for a rational deep inside of me..i need it syg..need it to overcome a force that we call jealousy...yah..it's true that i really2 do not want you to go to that fucntion...i'm afraid syg...afraid of those buaye...i'm not saying that i didnt trust you..infact i trust you with all my heart...n never ever in my life before i trust someone else except my mother like i'm trusting you....it's just..knowing that there are lots of them who are waiting to 'baham' u...

i'm so jealous of them..jealous because they have the chance to stare at your beautiful eyes...meet with u...have a face 2 face conversations with u syg...and i'm here...at the edge of the world...so far from you...only being able to look at our pics that we took together...hearing your voice on the phone....maybe i'm just too afraid of losing you syg...

syg..i know this jealosy thingy is very sensitive and very dangerous...i know because of it...married couple had to went through divorce...couple had to break their relationship....i know and understand it...i just want you to know what ii've felt...please dunt take it seriously...i'm not a king control...deciding who you should be friends with or what you should do...i know that i shouldn't doubt your loyalty to me...it's just...mayb i'm just a-like-to-worry-so-much type of geek...so there was me..finding my strength to think rationally and act like one...that's why i've had a little headache and to make things became worsen...when i knew about the G n the stupid sr of yours who tried to flirt with you...the pain was deep...it's like a sword slicing my heart into 88 pieces....thus making me lost a little interest in our chat..sorry syg...sorry..but do not worry my syg...i've managed to gather my rational n as a normal human being..i try to understand the matter wisely...fortunately i managed to thought like a rationale human being and managed to put aside my jealousy...so dont worry my syg..u may go...go with no remorse k...i just want you to know that...i love you so much syg...

Sunday, September 23, 2007




Look into my eyes you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do I do it for you

Look into your heart you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do I do it for you

There's no love like your love
And no other could give more love
There's nowhere unless you're there
All the time all the way

Oh you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you Ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do I do it for you

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Missing you



i've woke up with a confused face...i dream about my dear yesterday...we've had a little chit-chat...n she was saying that she'll come to korea to visit me...herm..i do not know wheter should i be happy or should i have a little sadness as a 'breakfast' because i miss her so much and really want to meet her but being not able to fullfil it...kinda makes me sad...or should i be happy vigorously because i dream about her?...i guess i just deal with both of the feelings anyway...

for me,she's like the wind...when the winds slowly crushed on your face...it'll brings peace and tranquility...the softness and the tenderness in the wind..slowly make u feel safe...we r longing for it...we need it...we know the wind are there...but we cannot touch it or see it...we can only feel it's present around us...n as long as the earth continue to exist...the wind will also be the same

but one thing forsure is that i REALLY MISS her...

Hepi..


hye...one thing that really struck me when it comes to a relationship is a sense of aprreciation...n when my dear sweetheart did like this to show me how much she's appreciating me...it's enough to makes me smile for the whole day...thanx my syg..thanx so much...

if u click on the image...u can see on the about me section where she wrote down 'him' ...uhuhu..thanx...im so happy because we know that there are someone who are willingly to be apart of our life...to share everythings and anythings with us...someone who are ready to shed her tears just for us...i'm more than happy sayang...thanx so much...